So...it's finally official. I've broken up with my now former girlfriend.

Am I happy? No, not from a long shot. I'm depressed, angry, and worried.

She was my first girlfriend. She was my first kiss.

I suppose, in the end, we just have different ideas over what a boyfriend and a girlfriend are suppose to be.

For me...anything short of close family is less important. If she needs me, I'll be there. If something happened to change our plans, I'd make damn well sure she knew.

For my Ex? Apparently, that isn't true.

Am I angry at her? Honestly, yes. Will I do anything about it? No.

Hate should not beget hate. She may make me the villain in her side of things, but I plan on moving on.

I'm going to go ahead in my life. Try stuff out. Try and write more. I've been needing to update my fics as it is, along with the 'Age of Supers' thing on DA here, and a new SK&WS.

And finally, I'd like to thank all of you at the SRB, and the former member, my friend Avenger, for all your support. I truly appreciate it, and I'm glad you people were there when I needed it.

So for now...I'm going to move on.

And hopefully beat my dad at Wii Bowling.

So...those on Skype might know I've been having some troubles with my power cord concerning my lap top.

One of them snapped on me, and now the second one seems to have fried. My dad's trying to fix it, actually, and I hope he does.

But, it's quite likely that means I won't be able to use my computer anymore.

Thankfully, it has full energy, so I have enough power to transfer everything if worse comes to worse. (I'm on the family computer at the moment, so you know.)

I can still use the computers at school, and probably this one at night sometimes. But I won't be on Skype or MSN for a bit.

I don't know what the chances are of getting a new computer. Probably very slim...Unless I get a job...Then I can pay my parents for one over installments.

So you guys know...

Update

So...yah...things burnt out, it seems...So, no more of my own computer for now.

On the plus side, I really don't have any essays this semester, and all my documents are on my portable USB Drive...

I think I need to stop using DA to talk about religious stuff...I just like to rant.

My thoughts are a lot different then most of the other people who do read my journals here, and it's like just two different ways of thinking.

I do have some serious problems with religion. I can see why someone would be religious, but for myself? It just doesn't make sense to me. And I know the people here don't fall under the things I really dislike about it, which I find nice. Gives me hope.

But everyone's different, so it's natural that we all don't think alike. If we did, the world would be a horribly boring place.

I like science. I find that the fact the natural world works like it does fascinating. I want to know how it works. For me, accepting the reason, “a miracle” just doesn't work. And yes, there are things science can't currently explain. But we couldn't explain how a lot of things worked, but science doesn't go, “Okay, we can't explain it, this must be the work of something we can't explain.” It goes, “Okay, we can't explain it right now. Here's how it might work, and we can come back to it once we can experiment better.”

For example, on why gravity is weak. There are a few theories out there, but science can't explain it right now. Once the Large Hadron Collider is up and running, we'll get closer to that answer.

Am I right? Heck if I know. Why I might believe there is no God, doesn't mean I think we're just a random firing of neurons in a meat suit. I think we have something more then just the sum of our parts. I do believe in the soul.

I just don't think a god created them. We as a species are all connected to each other, and we have to help each other out.

So why many of us disagree over things, there is the still undeniable fact we're all in this together, no matter the outcome.

“There is a theory which states that if for any reason anyone discovers what exactly the Universe is for and why it is here, it will instantly disappear and be replaced by something even more bizarre and inexplicable. There is another which states this has already happened.”
- Douglas Adams

P.S. DA needs better Moods for philosophical stuff.

WARNING!!!

The following journal contains talks on religion, belief, etc. Proceed at own risk.



Going from my philosophy class to the bus, I noticed a crowd in the Free Speech area of my college. Who was there?

A small group of extreme Christians were there, arguing that, “if you don’t believe in exactly what we say, you’re a sinner and are going to go to Hell.”

Normally I’d stop to listen, and probably argue some, but I needed to catch the bus.

I missed the bus, seeing it drive off as I ran to it, to late.

So, I returned to the Free Speech Area to listen, moving to a slightly smaller group.

Now, most of the arguing was not taking place between Christians and non-Christians, but rather the extreme ones, and moderate ones.

That helped me think better of humanity, honestly.

I didn’t argue at all. I wanted to, but I just never got a chance. I saw a lot of logical flaws in their (the extreme ones) arguments.

I left when it started to just become a shouting match.

And of course, in my philosophy class, we had been talking about God and paradoxes, so my mind was on this stuff.

I am an atheist. Or, as Douglas Adams says, ‘a radical atheist.’ Simply to the fact I really don’t think there’s a god. I’ve thought about it, and most of the arguments I’ve seen for God are either logically flawed, or also require then to believe in a number of things, like Bigfoot, fairies, leprechauns, etc.

For example, one famous argument for the existence of God is that “Absence of evidence is not evidence of absence.”

Saying that even though we have no definite proof of God, doesn’t mean God doesn’t exist.

But by that reasoning, you can use that to prove fairies exist. Or unicorns. Any number of things like that.

Absence of evidence is evidence of absence. If you can’t show something is/was there, then it wasn’t.

Heck, that’s the basis for our court systems almost. If you can’t prove that a suspect wasn’t where you claim they were, then they weren’t there. Absence of evidence is evidence of absence.

Does that mean believing in God is illogical? Well, yes. But that doesn’t necessarily mean it’s a bad thing.

Belief can provide comfort and hope, things we as humans need for survival. I find comfort in hope in the fact there’s no God. It makes me think that we are the masters of our own fate, and that it is up to us, not some superior being pulling the strings and watching us go.

But I’m human, I can empathasize. I know people find comfort in believing there is a big plan, that there’s something more then just the sum of our parts.

I suppose, it comes down to who one believes writes their lives. Is it God? Or is it themselves? Who is in control?

These are the questions we ask. And who's right? Well, we won't know until we're dead. And even then, we still might not.

“Isn’t it enough to believe that the garden is beautiful without having to believe there are fairies at the bottom of it too?”
- Douglas Adams, Last Chance to See

Let's get the sadness off my front page...With this quiz! Stolen from who probably stole it from someone else. The bum.

1) How you thought of the name.
2) What made you create the character in the first place?
3) How the character has changed over time (if they have changed).
4) Any random fun fact about that character?


Samuel Hawkins

1. I wanted a English sounding name, and with the initials ‘S.H.’ (For Super Hero.
2. A movie about this family that became immortal after drinking this certain water. It got me thinking about super heroes of like the past, or something, and then about an invulnerable hero, and that being their only power. No super strength, flight, etc. Just, invulnerability, and carried a bit to the extreme.
3. First he was placed back in the 1850s during the Mexican-American War, until he was retooled to be modern day. His name stayed the same, and his backstory shifted around slightly, such as the fact I decided his mother would be dead.
4. He works at a book store.

Ethan Vire

1. I wanted an evilish sounding name with the initials ‘E.V.’ (For Evil Villain.)
2. I needed an antithesis to Samuel. He has super strength, being able to destroy most anything, in opposition to Samuel, who can block anything.
3. At first he was a pretty 2 dimensional character, just someone for Samuel to fight, but as I worked on him, he grew and developed, and now I’d be willing to argue he’s just as much as the main character in the book starring Samuel as Samuel is.
4. He majored in Economics, but is a science enthusiast, having a minor in Biology.

Don Gallic

1. Gallic was something I heard somewhere, and thought it was a good name for a villain. ‘Don’ means ‘King’ and since he’s the C.E.O. of a large company, and evil, thought it fit.
2. Revelations. The Beast with Seven Heads and Ten Horns.
3. Developing what powers he has, his backstory, and what exactly he does has been changed some, but not to much since his original conception.
4. He’s more or less asexual. Just doesn’t care for that stuff.

Edda Adwr

1. Edda is a series of adventures, and Adwr means coward. So his name is basically the adventures of a coward.
2. I wanted to make a ‘hero’ character who was a coward, plus, a normal person (ability wise).
3. His original last name was ‘Rince’ or ‘Rin’ depending. And he’s been tweaked to be less of a coward, and more of just a realist. He’s gotten an expanding cast with him.
4. He’s a fast runner, due to all the experience he has.

Paul Lie

1. It sounds like ‘arler’ which is French for ‘To Speak.’ And he’s mute.
2. Irony. XD He’s a mute character with the Power of Words. Also, as a friend for Edda.
3. He was originally adopted, but not anymore.
4. He’s incredibly gifted at languages, able to understand and decipher a number of them.

Samantha Adwr

1. She’s actually Samuel’s daughter (he doesn’t know this), so her first name was given by her mother in tribute to her father, and the last name because Edda’s family adopted her. She’s Edda’s younger sister by adoption.
2. To continue on the Invulernable vs. Super Strength fight. And drama. Oh the drama.
3. Not to much, actually.
4. She’s half Egyptian on her mother’s side, and then English/Russian on her father’s.

Maize Sylvan/Vire

1. She was originally a Saiyan character, hence named after a vegetable. Maize is corn, for those who don’t know. And Sylvan is her mother’s maiden name (her mother divorced Ethan before she was born, and both of them knew she was pregnant).
2. She was an older character of mine ported into the original stories, plus it helps for Ethan’s inevitable return…
3. From the Saiyan character to human, she’s obviously lost all the powers except for super strength of course. And now she’s being retooled to turn into a villain…Much like her father.
4. She’s not as strong as her father yet, but she will be.

Galv

1. Another older port! His name comes from the word ‘Galvanize’ which is producing electricity through chemical means! And since he creates and manipulates electricity…
2. As said earlier, another ported character. And I wanted to see a hero character with electrical powers. Don’t see those to often.
3. Personality wise, he use to be fairly brash and confident, but is now more quiet and contemplative, usually fairly withdrawn except for certain people.
4. He was originally a part Pikachu character! Hence the electrical powers.

The Dark Man/One

1. He controls Dark Matter/Energy and is very mysterious.
2. I wanted to make a character who could control Dark Matter/Energy before someone else did. XD
3. None. He’s a more recent character, and he’s suppose to be something of an enigma.
4. He may have been in love once…

Evelyn Trickster/Revan

1. She’s the daughter of the Trickster God (Loki, The Serpent, The Raven etc), and a snake demoness. Her father named her ‘Evelyn’ because he thought it would be funny, on the fact that it was the snake who convinced Eve to eat from the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil. A shortened version of ‘Evelyn’ is ‘Eve.’ Also, ‘Revan’ is just ‘Raven’ with the vowels switched.
2. To have a good demon character, and Edda’s guide through his AlterEarth journey.
3. Not to much. She’s remained fairly constant so far.
4. She has naturally purple hair.

Sol

1. He’s a Fire Elemental! So, Sol, which is ‘Sun.’
2. An Elemental character (and Elementals are important), and a bonded thing with Edda. He becomes Edda’s protector, in a way.
3. Very little. He’s usually happy go lucky, except when he needs to protect his friends. Then, it’s serious business.
4. While he might be a ‘Minor Elemental’ there’s something very important about him…

Wooo! Might do this again later with other characters of mine. XD

ALSO!...NEW HEROES TODAY!

I can only hope they'll make up for Season 3's end...